2020’s Life Lessons

There comes a time when you have to move on.
The old laughs and smiles become more serious.
This chapter of the book is closing, and a new one appears.
I say farewell to that life, and all the things I’ve done.
But that life will always be with me, it stays in my heart.
It whispers my triumphs and failures, and it tells me to keep going.
Because I say farewell to that life, but not forever.

My life in school this past year was one I will never forget. It was a very stressful way to end my middle school years. Virtual school, sitting in front of a computer, looking at an empty screen with only my face in it while I sulked because of all the work that I was so reluctant to do. I was very unmotivated and didn’t have any good time management skills whatsoever. But I learned to toughen up and do what I needed to do. I knew that school wouldn’t get any easier, so I made myself strong-willed and determined. I set goals for myself to get work done. I started to talk to people more and get help from friends that I knew would have my back in such a stressful situation. I would also recommend taking breaks from work every once in a while, so you don’t overwork yourself.

I struggled a lot with mental health. I was really insecure and depressed. I felt like I didn’t fit in my own body, as if I was trapped in a dark hole full of my own negative thoughts. As I was going through this tough time, my family was going through it with me. They lifted me up in ways I don’t think I ever could have on my own. They made me feel like I was myself again. You don’t have to go through it alone; find people that can relate to you and try to build each other up from that place within yourselves. I also started to try to go outside more, take walks, and listen to music, so I would recommend this to anyone.

Family has always been important to me. We’ve been through so much as a whole. It’s to the point where I don’t think I could find another group of people so close in the world anymore. We’ve gained and lost together. Our mom passed away when we all were building such a foundation in our relationships with her individually. That experience taught me not to expect good things from the world because it’s not fair. The only thing I look at with hope is my older brother. He stopped his entire career to be home with his torn family. That time in my life created a new meaning of family for me. We aren’t just siblings anymore; we are a group of soulmates living in one eternity. I wouldn’t dare go through something alone when I have soulmates to go through it with me.